Addiction regardless if we're active or in recovery we all posses a commonality.
No replies good job Dunc no I’m not into that yet thinking sitting on back porch having coffee. It’s just that at times my mind races and i come here to drop dyslexic rambles.
Yet i find those of us in this tribe of addiction is that we share many similarities in reasons that we were using or use.
The common theme amongst us is in that I find that at those moments we all have in life yet as addictive people the suffering lead us to seek escape from the pain.
I was twelve when i started and in thinking today at fifty eight i now can see those moments in where my alcoholism expanded.
I have close friend who has been clean almost two decade her reasons for coming to the tribe of addiction was extremely fucked up life as young girl. As in her father and her brothers fucked her and her mom knew just refused her mother to deal with her only daughter being raped.
And her journey in using took her to Muncy prison for 12 years not combined. I think she told me that amount of time doing two different felonies.
And her and i talk not frequently yet she text me while back you doing ok hon i know gonna be two years this November losing your wife. I’m good at this one exact moment in time as I was texting her back I’m sober today yet I’m always on alert.
And she’s a fine human my friend and if I were to ever seek a relationship i told my friend once it would be with you she brought up
Maybe we could go friends with benefits she mentioned to me and she’s got hot body my lust , and her mind I’m so attracted to.
Yet two recovering addicts a widow and widower not sure on this as relationship that is why I slowed down hanging with her.
I told her I can’t do it that way me I am frightened to go there sex or making love with her yet I love her . Reasons only woman in these past decades I ever touched was my wife and she’s there in that dimension I’m here and in my head we’re still married.
I have come to discover those of us with addiction we have so much compassion example my friend we have empathy for all people well not me I hate fucking Trump and Maga.
You know my wife told me once you’re alcoholism is a disease it’s not your fault she said to me in bed one time.