Repressed memories flood back

[vercetti2021]

I gotta say, I'm having one of the most hardest nights tonight. I had a really bad memory of someone I hurt years ago just flood back into my brain over something I saw that triggered it easily. Not sure what the proper term for it is. But god the minute I saw it, my panic and anxiety skyrocketed to new levels I haven't had in a long time. So hard that my endorphins rushed to where I felt sick and lightheaded.

[multigraincracker]

1. Sounds a lot like

PSTD to me.
Good luck and be sure to seek help.

[vercetti2021]

2. Can it just happen from anything?

This was just a really bad falling out I had with somebody and it just flooded back. I mean does that really count as a PTSD episode?

[multigraincracker]

3. I had a long forgotten pain from when I was

11 years old. It came out when I was 41 and a breakup with a lover. Explained most of my life long problems. Had a great shrink work with me.

[vercetti2021]

4. Just can't afford it though

My insurance doesn't cover that

[SheltieLover]

5. Maybe ins at new job will, V

In the meantime, almost everywhere has sliding scale therapy available.

Sorry to hear you are being challanged with past memories.

This is a great example of what happens when we suppress, rather than fully process, life events. We all do it to varying degrees I think.

I hope you find a way to resolve this.

[vercetti2021]

9. Me too

I don't know if it'll be just temporary or if it'll be long-lasting thing I hope not though

[samnsara]

6. oh my gosh! (((hugs))) I hope it is better for you today....

[mopinko]

7. sounds pretty normal, tho awful.

every once in a while i will remember the moments of being a bad mom that i would do anything to take back. that's half of what i toss and turn over.
i can tell myself that i did the best i could until i turn blue but it wont help me sleep.

ditto being on the other end of the stick. i had a very close friend turn on me 15 yrs ago, and it still bugs me. it made no sense then and it makes none now.
i cant help searching for something i could have done differently at the time. the only thing i come up w is- everything.

when it happens i tell myself that some things you just have to sit with.
and that the only way forward is through.

dear one.

[vercetti2021]

8. Yep

Been trying that that's what people keep telling me to stop thinking about what happened before and just go about it now

[mopinko]

10. any chance this person wants to hear from you?

as painful as that break up was, if they called today, i would be happy to hear from them. if only to put it to rest. the whole thing hung on something that wasnt true. if they saw that, it would go a long way.

times like this i understand why time travel has always fascinated people.

[vercetti2021]

11. I say hello once in awhile

This just dredged up painful memories when I saw a certain photo

[mopinko]

12. well, maybe this person would be happy to put it in the past, too.

i'd talk to them. i'd likely kick myself later, but that's what i would do.