I saw a therapist for the first time a week ago. For depression episodes I've had all my adult life.

[brewens]

The depression I think is mostly caused by a few traumatic events. A couple of things I never told anyone about for 40 years. I just ended a 12 year relationship as well, and never even opened up to her.

I had this in mind for quite some time. I knew something would come along that would disturb me, and when it does, it brings up a lot of bad memories and sets me off. That's what seems like happened anyway, maybe my therapist will have other ideas. That's why I'm going.

I told her part of my inspiration was The Sopranos. I loved those scenes with Dr. Melfi. She said she's heard that inspired people before.

Overall, I'm doing pretty well. I've lost a lot of weight and am in better shape that I have been in 15 years. I'd like to meet someone nice and start another relationship. I thought the therapy might help ensure I handle any disappointments that may come.

I liked the first session. She didn't think I needed a complete evaluation or medication. I'm not opposed to that, but think my weed is quite sufficient.

[Skittles]

1. good to seek help

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and know that someone is always here on DU too

perhaps you could check this link from another thread

https://www.democraticunderground.com/100215983544#post1

[cilla4progress]

2. Will hold you

in my heart. 💜

[Walleye]

3. Yep that's my medicine of choice. I know what weed will do and I trust it

These other medications, who knows what’s going to happen

[brewens]

6. I only drink a couple times a year too. Last was Labor Day. I may be another month or so before

it even sounds like a good idea, but I really like walking over to the bar and pounding some down. A lady friend down the street manages it and would give me a heads-up on any prospects hanging out there if COVID ever settles down. Hiding out hasn't helped anything either, but I'm okay. I just want to keep it that way.

[SheltieLover]

4. Good for you!

Therapy is a luxury, imo. Tough work, but a luxury for most.

I'm glad you are addressing your trauma.

[marble falls]

5. Keep going, therapy has been benificial for me.

[msongs]

7. ditching the self medication with drugs might work, u could try that too. nt

[underpants]

8. Good for you.

You know you have a lot of people's support.

[MLAA]

9. Good for you on recognizing a need and diving in! I bet it will help.

[multigraincracker]

10. Went thru it about 30 years ago.

Turned out to be the best thing that ever happened to me.
Found out where all of those depressing feeling were coming from so I could find some healthy ways to deal with them. Got into a routine of an hour of exercise every day. Went back to school while still working and got a degree in psychology.

Best of luck.

[lucca18]

11. Good for you!

You should be proud of yourself.
All the best to you!
😍

[Pepsidog]

12. What did she think of your use of weed?

[brewens]

17. Nothing yet. I was a commercial driver for 25 years until three years ago. I never smoked all that

time because of the random testing. I'm thinking of quitting, but have been having fun making my own edible treats. One of those before my morning walk might be the thing I would miss the most.

[Pepsidog]

19. Good luck and wish you well.

[TigressDem]

13. Therapy does help.

Partially, simply setting aside the time to focus on yourself and issues gives a person a chance at success.

We are only as sick as our secrets in some ways. Hiding pain and shame gives it more power in our lives.

When I started getting better, I noticed guys seemed to be crawling out of the woodwork and began noticing me, but just like cockroaches, they weren't really the healthy relationships I wanted.

So to NOT get into the same old same old, I wrote up 2 lists.

One was for all the things that would be great in someone I could love for the rest of my life.

One was for who I wanted to be in a relationship.

My second hubby was everything on my list and being with him helps me live up to mine as well.

After 30 years together, he does get on my nerves once in awhile, but hey, we just get through it and figure it out.

PROBLEM SOLVING was big on the list... so found someone who isn't afraid to deal with stuff.

Good on you for getting started on being healthier.

HOPE YOU GET A WHOLE NEW LEASE ON LIFE AND SENSATIONAL RESULTS.

[Anon-C]

14. Gooooooooooooo Brewens!

[littlemissmartypants]

15. I'm glad you are reaching out. Drugs saved my life. ❤

[appalachiablue]

16. Good on you for taking this step. All the best

and positive vibes. Learn through therapy and introspection, grow and enjoy your life. You deserve it.

[niyad]

18. Wishing you all the very best.