Does anyone here have chaos in their environment?
My last sublet was roomy and beautiful, and I kept it up. Due to ongoing mental-health issues. And feeling drained constantly, my current apartment is messy and there are unpacked boxes around. Dust bunnies and fur around the baseboards. I do keep on top of the dishes and laundry.
The apt is a bit run down, and the area around the tub not grouted or waterproofed, so there's some recurring damage in that corner. I'm terrified of the lease not being renewed. I am grateful to have a place to live, however.
Anyone else struggle with a chaotic life , home, etc? I'm off work, so I should do more, then I feel guilty and worse.
Thanks for listening
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My mother used to chide me that no matter what needed doing inside my house, I’d find something more “pressing” to do outside. 
I really should clean my spare/workout/storage room today, but I’ll probably be planting bulbs and working on a brick pathway in the side yard lol.
It says: Dust is a Country Accent. 
Don’t know whether it’s attention deficit or autism spectrum or what. I do my best now that I’m old and live alone it’s OK. But I am relieved every time my lease is renewed. Just know that you are not the only one who suffers with this kind of thing Hang in there don’t let it get you down. My motto used to be 100 years from now nobody will care. But day to day can be very tough
We'd like a modest condo of our own.
I used to be fanatical about cleaning house when I was younger. It took up way too much of my life--time for things that became more important to me--my animals mostly. Along with my large garden, and projects we always have going on (finishing the inside of our cabin-like actual walls and doors, putting up fencing, building more animal structures, etc). Even though we are both retired now, we are busier than ever, and ENJOY it.
Yeah, my house is usually a mess. We have 3 Great Pyrenees that are walking shedding machines. Fighting cobwebs and dust in a log home can be a full time job because of the uneven wall surface and beamed ceilings. Like most horse people I know, my barn is usually cleaner than my house! Mr. Bayard, for all his wonderful qualities, is something of a slob about leaving clothes and stuff laying around. But he does the laundry, and occasionally vacuums. He does so much of the outside work, I can't begin to tell you.
I've learned to walk through our little home, and close my eyes about some things. I'll get to the cleaning when I can, but I'm not obsessed with it anymore. Most of the time, I'm happy as a clam, even though I'm bipolar. Rarely now, depression can still raise its ugly head. But, my meds have been literally life-saving. I've been on the same stuff for a long time, and it works well for me.
Right now, I'm trying to make time to take down the Xmas decorations!
DUers are such great, supportive people. Some days I have energy; others, not. I'm going to attack the floor when I feel like it
I too used to be a real ‘neat nick’ but, then kids & dogs etc. helped me to be a bit more relaxed, if you know what I mean 
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Now getting older & getting rid of things is the hard part.
But, two things that really motivate me are 1) that great feeling you get when everything’s neat and tidy and 2) watching those hoarding shows- gets me going every time!!
If you lived nearby I would come by and help you get started 
It’s always easier to help with someone else’s cleaning than your own!
solution to all problems!! 
and remember guilt is so very destructive... of no use to anyone, although sometimes difficult to be rid of, I know
be kind to yourself!
take a photo of items that you are attached to, but don't have room for. Keep a photo album of these things and donate the items to charity.
The husband and I downsized to a 2 bedroom 2 bath apartment when he became disabled years ago. Going from a house to apartment with inside parking was a blessing, not having to do yard work etc. But the decreased space means it can get cluttered quicker. I have to do all the housework, and I still work full time. I try to do a little each day so I don't need to waste my weekend time cleaning.
Take Care!
Thanks for sharing. It's not easy.
You can just do your best, but I understand how these issues just cascade until they seem insurmountable.
I have boxes in my living and dining rooms which have been there for years!..Dust bunnies? Yes! Cat fur? Yes! ..Clutter I can't seem to get on top of?..Most definitely!
..So don't feel bad, as you can see, you've got lots of company!
