The death of Nex Benedict has me extremely bothered

[vercetti2021]

I hope this goes to show some who don't understand someone being trans or NB is not something to just brush off. Kids are in danger at a much more higher level than us adults. We adults can take the shit, children cannot. Their peers are fucked up little monsters raised by even worse monsters.

They were 16, just like Brianna Ghey was. These kids had a full life ahead of them, they were lucky to start so young as I wish I did at their age. These two deaths have me absolutely so angry that I've started to last out at transphobic people left and right because I'm tired. I'm tired of being constantly attacked and dehumanized. Today I was called a freak by some fucking dickhead at the shooting range I go to and I fucking snapped. I was about to fight this fucker in the parking lot, but they walked away and of course I said something quite harsh I won't say the words here and he came storming at me. I ended up throwing a leg up and shoving this asshole away from me with all the force I could. But somehow its my fault because I'm a hot button issue. No I'm a fucking human trying to goddamn survive.

I'm so tired, I'm tired of fucking fossils telling me who and what I am when they don't know shit. This is why trans people are arming themselves. We are tired and we are done being statistics. I've become what those gun humpers have been doing, hoarding weapons because I'm afraid. I will admit it finally. I am fucking afraid of what will come. And what I will have to do in order to survive if the worst comes to pass. I've become more and more empathetic due to the hate and more cold towards strangers and people in general.

Being trans isn't what I choose, it's what I am. I wouldn't be if I could, but that isn't a possibility. Living as a man was horrible and felt imprisoned. Rather die as I am now than live a life being someone I wasn't. These fuckers really want a fight, then I'm more than happy to give them a fight. I just want people to understand that. We are people too, we have every fucking right to exist and be happy. Our lives matter, but those on the right. Fuck them and their hateful lives they have chosen to have. They had a choice, I didn't.

[lapucelle]

1. Holding you in my heart...

[The Magistrate]

2. It's A Shame What You Have To Face And Deal With, Ma'am

I've a trans grandkid. His school is a large one, in a large city, and there are non-standard sorts in sufficient number to constitute their own clique, which eases matters. Still, I've concerns for the future. People ought to mind their own damn business, and who someone is isn't a matter for anyone else's concern.

[Chi67]

3. I hear you

I'm a 56 year old gay man who has had trans people in my life since college. I cannot figure out why there is so much hate. I worry for my trans friends constantly. I am even more disturbed that the fed done haas absolutely nothing to combat this hate.

All we LGBT people get is kind words from the fed. It's time for action. It's time to make DEMANDS from the fed. I don't blame you defending yourself. A person can only take so much!

Hopefully, some people in government will finally start to stand up after this horrible tragedy. Hang in there, and know that there are people who support you!

[Think. Again.]

4. Well said, and Thank You for saying it.

[MuseRider]

5. I know this does not really help but I need to say it,

I love you all. Just like you are, whatever you you are or even whatever you might choose to be. None of that matters. I love you and I am mighty glad you are here.

[Blue Dawn]

6. You are exactly right.

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I share your anger. I feel it deeply.

[ShazzieB]

7. "Fuck them and their hateful lives" is right.

I'm with you all the way on that. As long as I live, I will never understand why some people think that holding certain views gives them the right to impose those views on others, much less punish those who do not comply.

The haters may claim that they are just following the rules dictated by their god, but any deity who who would approve of their actions is an even bigger pos than they are, afaic. I am not an atheist, but I sure as hell don't believe in the god they claim to worship.

I will always stand with those like you who face discrimination and persecution from people who think they have the right to tell others who and what they are allowed to be and how they are allowed to live their lives. Fuck the haters. Fuck every last one of them.

[UpInArms]

8. Amarillo is a harsh environment

I left there in 1988 …

Be kind to yourself

[vercetti2021]

9. I wanna leave too

But all my family is here along with friends. So its hard to leave them behind. This place is such a backward ass shithole and I hate it. I hate 90% of the people here.

[UpInArms]

10. I had always heard

that if you wore out your shoes in Amarillo, you couldn’t leave …. I moved there at the age of 12 with my family … (no choice) …. Left in 78 … moved back in 79 … left in 80 … moved back in 87 …. I bought a bunch of new shoes while there, being very careful to never wear anything out … left in 88 … have only been ack for brief visits … I knew no one where I moved to (Dallas) then moved to Austin … then california … and now have been in Missouri for 30+ years …

I have never regretted leaving Texas

[vercetti2021]

11. Yeah if I leave Texas

I will never come back, even to visit. I would never come back. I'd move to Colorado or New Mexico that way family could be closer to visit me.

[markodochartaigh]

16. I left Amarillo in 1986.

Dallas was not perfect by any means but it was immeasurably better than Amarillo. But growing up gay a half century ago in Amarillo prepared me for dealing with the maga hate that is spreading today.

[UpInArms]

17. Dallas ate my brain

Austin was cool, though

[brer cat]

12. Thank you for a heartfelt and honest post, vercetti.

[MLAA]

13. Righteous statement, vercetti2021.

You go girl, I’m only 4’11 but I stand by you and with you

[ancianita]

14. Such a sweet human. Every last thing you say is right. YOU are right. You are entitled to a peaceful, love-filled life.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Death_of_Nex_Benedict

[LostOne4Ever]

15. From one Gender Dysphoric Texan to another!

We will survive this! We will thrive! So long as we are alive there is hope!!!

[limbicnuminousity]

18. You do have every fucking right to live and be happy.

Why people don't get that is a mystery. Thanks for speaking up. Don't let the haters egg you into getting yourself in trouble. They simply aren't worth it.