My personal hell.
I can talk about my depressed, OCD, autistic spectrum occasionally psychotic and paranoid self, my dead bag lady grandma, my mom who has God's direct telephone number unlike the Popes who probably never get past Saint Peter or his undersecretaries and then only rarely, my dead autistic rocket scientist grandfather putting together the pieces of recovered Nazi technology, POW's, American drug and alcohol addict mad scientists, or my other grandpa who was a conscientious objector during the war who refused to touch a gun and picked up a welding torch instead but later killed himself with a gun shortly after he retired...
These genes survive, and they are obviously good for something, and finding like and reproducing, but damn there are days I just want to run away from it all and live alone in the woods.
No worries, my current meds are adequate, not too unpleasant, no dangers.
I'm just tired and cranky today.
I'm not seeing a good grumpy smiley. This one is close, but a bit too much:
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You made a good observation (well several actually) about your genes being "obviously good for something" because that is very, very true. Sometimes it isn't so obvious, but then other times it is. Sometimes it is just a matter of waiting for the time to come. Y'know? 
Basically, neglected rat babies grew up with debris that was replicated and passed on to future generations. Rat babies of good mothers did not have this debris. They switched the babies giving babies of the good mother to the bad and vice versa and the proving that bad mother was the cause of the debris. They had a chemical that will desolve the debris off of the genes and injected into the badly mothered rat brains, erasing the bad effects of the bad mothering.
It worked. There may be something in our bodies that does this ie religious awakening or therapy but that is for future research.
Some people have genes that predispose them to what we call mental illness. It seems to be the ability to cope with it that makes a difference in your life.
I have always needed solitude in my life and hated crowds or any groups of non-friendly people, (sort of like today's workplace almost everywhere in this country.)
Would invite you for coffee and to watch some old movies but you probably live 3000 miles away.
