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[polly7]

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[NYC_SKP]

1. Holding good thoughts for you, polly7.

Take care.

I'm sorry about all the pain you must feel from the tragedies that you've suffered.

[polly7]

2. Thanks NYC-SKP

I feel sort of pathetic writing these things because I know others have far greater problems, but it's just really hard when you don't see anything good and it's like ... what's the use in trying. I don't know how some people manage it, and I used to be such a strong person ... now, it's gotten to being pissed off I wake up in the mornings. No worries, I'd never do anything to myself because I know how that's devastating to people that care, but you feel trapped, you know? Sometimes it would be easier to have no-one to pretend for.

[NYC_SKP]

4. I'll bet you're probably still a strong person.

But our lives get complicated, and there are periods, seasons, of good and bad.

OTOH, as we age we sometimes change, some of it for the better and wiser, other parts may be just getting tired.

We know, though, that there's always enough good to be willing to bear the bad, right?

[applegrove]

3. Man you are in a sressfull situation.

When stuff in my life was falling apart and I had not yet figured it out I why, I went on meds. They gave me a strong baseline. So when my life blew apart I had something to rely on. And when that was not enough for the horrors I was going through I tried another kind of med. Made me concentrate on the dangers in my life even more but allowed me to handle it all. I‘m pretty happy right now and have been for years. I‘m lucky. They work for me. Just an fyi. If stuff doesn‘t improve I would give meds a second chance. You could take them just until your life improves. Why suffer when it can be avoided.

[bananas]

5. hugs

[No Vested Interest]

6. September will soon be over - just a few more days.

Then you can say to yourself "I got through September!" and don't have to think about that for another eleven months, or ever!"
Life is hard sometimes, life is tough. But not hopeless.

[fizzgig]

8. hang in there

have you talked to your doc about benzos for the anxiety? you mentioned that you have trouble sleeping due to anxiety and i know that lack of sleep always makes my anxiety worse.