I need help

[vercetti2021]

Last edited Sun Apr 1, 2018, 04:57 PM - Edit history (1)

Honestly I've had the worst night I've had in years. I lost two of my closest friends this week because of who I am. And at this point I'm really ready to just die at this point. All the pain that I keep holding in it's just built up to this point and I can't hold it anymore.


Edit. I'm OK now. Went to the ER. Feeling somewhat more better. Thank you so much for the support. Much love

[steve2470]

1. we can talk a bit to you but you probably need to go to the ER....

Is there any way you can get yourself to your nearest hospital ER ? Better safe than sorry I think.....

[steve2470]

2. if there's absolutely no way you can get to the ER, then call these people....

1 [phone] Suicide Prevention Hotline

This group is really not equipped to handle major crises, sorry.

[Sherman A1]

5. Agreed

The folks there are trained and able to help well beyond anything that might possibly be available using this or similar forums. I urge you to contact them promptly.

[Granny M]

3. I agree with Steve.

There is very little we can do. Please go to the ER or call the crisis number Steve posted.

[vercetti2021]

16. ER helped

Thank you for reaching out

[Granny M]

20. So glad you took care of yourself, Vercetti.

Thank you for letting us know. I’m sure that i’m not the only one here who was thinking of you today.

[vercetti2021]

21. Yeah it helps a lot

But severe depression is beginning to wear me down terribly bad and a lot of my close friends are becoming root issues too.

[safeinOhio]

4. Dear vercetti

some of us have been there and have gone on to recover. Seek help, please.
I had those feelings almost 30 years ago and, with help, have turned that around and have gone on to a better life than ever.


Best of luck my friend, we do care about you.

[Louis1895]

6. Help is out there!

You are not alone!! Steve is right. You need to reach out to people trained and who have access to the resources to help you.

This article also lists some other ways to seek help including calling “911”.

https://www.nami.org/Blogs/NAMI-Blog/September-2017/How-to-Help-Someone-in-Crisis

Please seek help now.

[whathehell]

12. Same here, vercetti -- been where you are now & turned it

all around -- You can too -- Go talk to someone in person.

[vercetti2021]

17. Thank you

I'm glad you turned it all around. I'm trying like hell to turn mine around for years.

[safeinOhio]

29. It is a journey and may take some time.

I ended up going back to college in 40s and got a degree in psychology.

[Alliepoo]

7. Yes-I agree

Please get to an ER or call the number that Steve posted. They can help you the best right now. ((HUGS))

[vercetti2021]

25. Hugs

Thank you, I did go to the ER. They helped me out the best they could.

[syringis]

8. Hello Vercetti

I'm too far to be of any efficient help, but I send you my best and sincere wishes to get a full recover, the sooner possible.

DUers will, for sure, help you much more better than I can do.

Please, follow their advice.

[vercetti2021]

22. Thank you

It's just nice to get some support from people here. It's wonderful how many people really care. I did go to the ER and get some help.

[pazzyanne]

9. I have felt your pain myself.

I agree with all the advice on this page. The first step to getting better is getting help at an ER or through the help line Steve posted. That first step is the most important one you will ever take to making your life better. Everyone is different, but we all take that first step if we want to recover and build a better life for ourselves. There is also a group called Emotions Anonymous that may be available in your area. That number is [phone].

[vercetti2021]

19. ER did help

Thank you. Just want things to be better you know? It's been rough

[pazzyanne]

30. Totally understand, vercetti2021.

The first step is the hardest. From here on it is one foot in front of the next. Stay with it. Getting your life back will be worth all of the effort that you make and follow through on. Won't be easy, but I know you can do it. A good mental health professional is also an important key to success. And a good support group that can give you face to face caring and understanding will also help you succeed. Keep me posted on how things are going for you.

[vercetti2021]

40. I will

I'll be sure to keep in touch. I need to get on medicare or something so I can afford to go to a professional.

[Rorey]

10. online chat

vercetti, please call the number that Steve put up, but if you feel it would be easier to start with an online chat, I found this:

https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org/chat/

Please take care of yourself, and we all look forward to hearing from you. Remember that!

[vercetti2021]

24. Bookmarked this for later

Just in case. Thank you. Went to the ER and get some help. I'm doing better now.

[Rorey]

28. Very good to hear

And thank you for updating us here.

[vercetti2021]

33. Thank you

You're welcome

[Squinch]

11. Vercetti, you took the first step by posting this. Now take the second and call the number

steve gave you. You are already on your road. Keep going. And let us know you when you are feeling better.

[vercetti2021]

23. I am now

ER visit helped me out and was able to calm myself down. It's just nice people here care so much more than my close friends lately.

[Squinch]

34. I am so glad to hear that. I know a few people this has happened to. They are all doing

well today. My cousin, the one I'm closest to, says it forced her to get some help that has made her much happier and healthier overall.

Best of luck to you.

[vercetti2021]

35. Depression is horrible

For over 10 years it's been constant struggling and fighting. I think adult life makes it worse

[Squinch]

36. Hang in there. Keep taking care of yourself.

[vercetti2021]

38. Will do the best I can

[irisblue]

13. Hey...

How ya going?

[vercetti2021]

18. Better

ER visit helped me thank you

[shenmue]

14. 1-800-273-8255, national suicide hotline

[vercetti2021]

15. Thank you

Feeling better now. ER visit helped out

[shenmue]

31. Thank goodness

[vercetti2021]

32. Thank you for caring

[Skittles]

26. vercetti2021, remember this:

someone is always here on DU - feel free to reach out to us

[vercetti2021]

27. Reason I posted here first

This is my safe haven to go and talk to people. It helps me greatly and you all helped me. It makes me feel good to know people care.

[Louis1895]

37. Wishing you the best Vercetti!

Thanks for checking in!

[vercetti2021]

39. Thank you for caring

It helps

[hunter]

41. I missed your post, I was with family for Easter and all...

... and was just jumping in and out of DU for a moment whenever I needed a distraction from the usual drama of my life, real and imagined... I have a high drama family, and a very vivid imagination about everything that can possibly go wrong.

I'm glad you got good advice. There are many wonderful people here on DU. (And you can learn to ignore those who are not so wonderful.)

May I say that the E.R. is a first step?

I'm not qualified to give any medical advice, but I do have some experience dealing with my own mental illness, ways that work for me, and ways that don't.

In my most recent (and hopefully last) crisis, the first time I went to the E.R. I apparently recovered enough that they let me go home. I really wanted to go home. I hate hospitals.

Unfortunately I have a lifetime experience *pretending* to be clear headed and functional when I'm not feeling that way at all inside. That kind of acting is reflexive for me almost.

I bounced back into the ER a few days later in an even worse state, feeling a combination of failure that I hadn't been able to absorb any of the advice I'd gotten, confused by the meds I'd been prescribed, and paranoid and reckless as all hell; a clear danger to self, though I was not entirely aware of that at the time. The small rational voice in my head that was telling me to return to the ER was getting lost in the cacophony of other voices and motivations.

Fortunately I did go to the ER again and this time they wheeled the bed I was on straight up to the locked psych ward. I hardly remember the first 24 hours there; so much noise in my head.

But this time, in the psych ward, as opposed to the first E.R. visit, they were actually able to get me onto a path of some stability. I haven't been anywhere near my worse since, but it's still been a long journey from that initial visit to the E.R.; a journey well worth taking.

Take care of yourself. If my story isn't helpful to you, that's okay. We've all got our own stories and circumstances.