I miss my past childhood

[Marthe48]

5. I've been taking naps lately

I woke from one the other day, sort of lingered in the haze between sleeping and waking, had a fleeting thought of a memory, from way back when I was young. I got a flash of nostalgia, but it was cocooned with years, so even though I felt like I missed that time, the sadness was too faint to bring tears. I spent a little bit of waking time wondering if I've lived so long that the memories are too distant to take to heart.

We unpack more than ornaments at the holidays and this is the time of year that memories glitter with the same brightness as the tinsel. It is easy to think of good times when someone always made sure we were safe, fed, rested, loved. Now we have to be nice to ourselves, take care of ourselves. It might be harder to do right now, but withthe holidays over for another year, we can get back to taking one step at a time, one day at a time.