Your last job sounds like a nightmare. I have always felt for people whose job involves deescalating bs (even when it is my own
;-/ ).
My worst work experience was over a decade ago and I burnt out pretty badly. On the plus side, I am fine now.
There was a lot of fault on my side, but even so the institution was a bit hideous. I have grown up myself a bit now, but I still do roll my eyes about some of their bs when I recollect it.
Still in the balance I figure it is better to blame oneself for ones own sake (as long as no one else knows
).
The institution I last worked at..they had an institutional personality that came across as pushy and somewhat obnoxious. The people there werent too bad often, but the collective personality of the institution was ..well I found it charming
.
I dont really have a problem acknowledging
my own errors and more importantly correcting them under at least semi-reasonable conditions ;-/.
However, it makes fair-minded processing of ones own errors hard when you fear that a pushy employer is looking over your shoulder to collect a list of your faults to neutralise you.
Oh well
you learn from anything that doesnt kill you. I am pretty robust psychologically so I guess it was a learning experience.
My boss was actually cool. It is why I have finally let it go. I suppose what I thought/think roughly translated/s to This poor man is working and doing his best in this hideous place. He is decent enough so I should get out/move on
Anyway I am glad it worked out for you liberal n proud.