Broken

[mopinko]

1. this thing has been hard on my mental health too. and my physical health.

it's been so crazy here.
a lot of my neighbors lost their minds. i've never had so much conflict in my life.
my intestines have stopped working right. i have a scope this week.

but i've talked to a few people about what last year was like for me and mostly they relate.
everyone seems to have endured some insanity in all this.

what i worry about most is the amount of free floating grief in the world right now.
so many dead, alone. family shut out. as a hospice worker, i know what happens next and it's not good.
it one of the things weighing on me, because i COULD have done something. i used to do something about this once a week. it's something that matters to me.
and i'm locked out.
it meant so much to me to do that small thing to make the world a better place.
now i a stuck here stewing in my own juices.