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I don't think I ever took past holidays for granted, but I still miss them and get weepy, too, especially for those no longer with us. When I was little, my brothers and I woke up thrilled to see Santa's presents wrapped under the tree, with my parents looking on with happiness. Later, I relived the same moments with my kids and experienced their pure joy. Now my kids are adults, and not able to visit due to distance and illness. I can't get into the holiday spirit. I feel it's too commercial. TV ads for new cars with big red bows! Please! The pandemic has exposed so many problems with our society that I feel guilty for what I do have (financial security) rather than grateful because so many have nothing. I'm weary. I can't stop thinking of social injustice. And climate change. My adult children will not be having children, by choice. They feel it is immoral to bring a child into a world that will be mostly uninhabitable by the time they are my current age, 72. I agree with them. If population is unchecked, there will be 7.8 billion in the world in 80 years, which will only be able to accommodate 1.7 billion in the manner of an average American today. I would also wish for do-overs so we could have stopped climate change when it was still possible. And a do-over for isolating the COVID-19 virus before it became a pandemic. So yeah, I'm bummed and depressed. But I will get through it. Cooking as normal. Zooming with family later. But still major bummed. Scared for my children.