So it's Christmas again...

[canuckledragger]

13. Part of the problem with that is...

I'm 46 now, and it's hard to remember a lot of specific events. I remember being terrified as a child a few times because I had no idea how far my step-father would go in an alcohol fuelled rage, and given my mother's inaction, knew there was nobody to help me.

The physical abuse stopped at 14 when I was big enough to give it back to him. I remember being terrified of retribution after that event...but came to realize that he was a coward that only hit those that couldn't fight back easily...and I now I could. All behaviour after that was petty, childish mind games that all based around control and satisfying his ego. He had to be the 'boss' you see, making all the important decisions no matter how bad he continuously screwed things up. He had to have a scapegoat.

It's also one of the big reasons I've cut contact with that lot, because the game never stops, and the role I've been assigned there (the bad one) is forever. Not something I'm willing to put up with now, anywhere.