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26. Have you reached out to the disability community for help with Social Security?

Not knowing where you are in Minnesota I can't name a specific center, but you might start here:

https://mcil-mn.org/services/individual-advocacy/

Social Security--SSI or SSDI--is pretty much designed to be frustrating. As mentioned elsewhere on this thread, if they don't reject everyone the first time around, they come pretty damn close. The amount of paperwork and documentation required for a successful claim is obscene. This despite the bogus conservative myth that there's a huge amount of abuse. The truth is--the abuse is how many people need and deserve the services, but don't get them.

If the folks at this center can't help, I'm hoping they can direct you to someone who can. Minnesota has a reputation for having a really active and progressive disability rights community, so I'm hoping you'll be able to find someone to help you through the maze.

In the meantime, please try to hang in there. I attempted suicide when I was a teenager and came pretty close to succeeding (days in a coma, weeks in intensive care). The trauma I caused my family and loved ones haunts me still. I also hit my low point in the dead of a northern winter--the cold and the dark make everything worse. Being "sick and tired of being sick and tired"--yeah, I can definitely relate.

I can't from this distance offer anything like meaningful advice, except to say your husband no doubt needs you in ways you might not imagine or fully understand, being so far deep into depression as you seem to be. Reach out to him, reach out to others. There are people out there who will care. As for the rest of them: "Try not to let the bastards get you down."

Best wishes and please let us know how things go.