Ever feel you are constantly in defense mode?

[kozar]

I have been there actually most my life, but most definitely the last 6 months since MrsK passed. Having to prove to many agencies who I am( LilBits Dad) over and over again. Last week I just broke down, my anger kicked in. And yesterday, I feel I crossed a bridge beyond anger.
LilBit needs a simple TB test to get into day services for challenged adults. I called Pcp, Tues morn, they said just walk in. So I loaded up LilBit and we drove to Dr. And we sat. And we sat. And then the nurse calls me up and says” we can’t give her a test, she needs a chest X-ray “ I said that’s why I called yesterday but you didn’t call me back.

Then , the line,,” well , you’re just the dad who adopted her, not the real one” Felt my anger kick in for a sec, then something weird.
Tears in my eyes, I started stammering and finally got out, “ why can’t you communicate and answer my phone calls” and just took LilBit to car.
I have a long long story to tell about what I have gone through. And it all involves, you are a single Dad.

Im just tired , thanks for listening.

KozandLilBit