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OldBaldy1701E

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20. Interesting that you mention one thing

Wed Sep 21, 2022, 12:03 PM

Sep 2022

I spent 43 years trying to be a successful performer. (My definition of successful: being able to live a comfortable life. Not massive fame and fortune, just doing as so many others in so many other careers have done.) One of the driving forces for me was the fact that my family did not believe that I could and that I was wasting my time. I strove for the day when I could wave that success in their faces for being so negative and degrading to me about it. Well, they were right. And, I lost any of that desire to 'spite' anyone or anything. I had my chance to 'live well'. I failed. Why prolong this desecration of life one more second? That is where I am these days.

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So, the physical therapist asked me a question yesterday... [View all] OldBaldy1701E Sep 2022 OP

Oldbaldy, dayum up until the minute you hit the car that pulled out in front of YOU, MLAA Sep 2022 #1

The loss of biking has been one of the worst aspects of what happened. OldBaldy1701E Sep 2022 #3

I had lots of orthopedic surgeries throughout my first 18 years. Most involved MLAA Sep 2022 #5

if it were me GenXer47 Sep 2022 #2

I also got a really deep wound to my right calf. OldBaldy1701E Sep 2022 #4

Do you have home healthcare set up? They can send a wound care specialist a time or two a week. MLAA Sep 2022 #7

Nah... we are barely holding on as far as finances and such are concerned. OldBaldy1701E Sep 2022 #9

I have both sympathy and empathy for your situation Wishful-Thinking Sep 2022 #6

Thanks. Also, 'malaise' should be my middle name. (n/t) OldBaldy1701E Sep 2022 #8

It's hard to focus on goals and desires when you're still actively dealing with injury and pain. enough Sep 2022 #10

Thanks. OldBaldy1701E Sep 2022 #11

Not sure what to say XanaDUer2 Sep 2022 #12

Thanks OldBaldy1701E Sep 2022 #17

When I need ideas... Chalco Sep 2022 #13

Thanks for the suggestion. OldBaldy1701E Sep 2022 #18

I'm right there with you. luvs2sing Sep 2022 #14

Thank you OldBaldy1701E Sep 2022 #19

well... markie Sep 2022 #15

Interesting that you mention one thing OldBaldy1701E Sep 2022 #20

I have no more ambition or goals, and I have never been happier. Midnight Writer Sep 2022 #16

I did not want to accomplish anything extraordinary. OldBaldy1701E Sep 2022 #21

Just checking in with you today, oldbaldy1701E. MLAA Sep 2022 #22

Thanks. I am doing a tiny bit better. (n/t) OldBaldy1701E Sep 2022 #23