What do you do when you're too depressed to start?

[mopinko]

7. i have a fave album that is my- get it in gear- music

i start the day w coffee and smokes and du and the news.
a good thing about having a puppy is that she needs a schedule. so, breakfast is what kicks the stuff to do of the day. at this point, when the music starts, the pup knows it’s time to eat.
once the puppy is fed, i tell myself- me 1st. take my pills, brush my teeth, do some yoga. feed the other critters. it’s almost habit, tho it isnt quite.
some days that’s 9, some days 11.

after that, if i can do 1 thing to move the ball, it’s a good day.
there’s always a long list of things, something every where i look. so i do the thing that is going to make me feel best about myself. what is bugging me the most? not what is most ‘important’.
cleaning always makes me feel good, even tho i resent it. i’ve been trying to purge some of the crap around here, and that feels good, too.

but the best thing about the puppy is she gets me outside, and around ppl, interacting w them.

this is my 3rd sunday of doing nothing, tho. the whole decision cascade of doing even little things around here is sand in my gears. so, if i dont do anything, i dont have to decide what to do.
the rest feels rly good. and that seems like accomplishment enough.

take care, and dont worry about something as small as showers unless you are going somewhere, and u rly stink.