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OldBaldy1701E

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56. For me, it is my husband.

Reply to BlueKota (Original post)

Sat Mar 22, 2025, 08:53 PM

Mar 22

The one human being (outside of here, but I married him long before I had heard of the site) who has not betrayed/turned on/walked out on/used and abandoned me in the 60+ years I have been around.

I have survived four attempts, mainly because I was stupid and probably subconsciously trying to sabotage them anyway. (Not the last one, that one was serious and it was only a fluke that saved me.) I know I am incapable of doing myself in without a serious trigger. However, this body seems willing to spare me the dilemma of figuring out how to finally do it. Which is part and parcel of my luck. Now that I finally have someone special, I am too far gone to be able to provide for anyone, and will be ashes in an urn soon enough.

As that old 'Hee Haw' tune went, "If it weren't for bad luck, I'd have no luck at all!" I have had one exception to that.

One.

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I'm staying alive for my dog and my cat [View all] BlueKota Mar 20 OP

I think you have a large crowd feeling similarly about our current situation... hlthe2b Mar 20 #1

Thank you BlueKota Mar 21 #30

I lost my son in 2022 crimycarny Mar 20 #2

Hugs and tears Clouds Passing Mar 20 #7

I am so sorry. LoisB Mar 20 #9

I'm so sorry crimycarny Mar 20 #11

Yes, we are never the same. I am so sorry for your loss. Clouds Passing Mar 20 #24

I am so sorry about your son. No greater pain than losing a child. LoisB Mar 20 #8

No greater pain crimycarny Mar 20 #12

You are right. One would have to have experienced it to truly understand. I watched my LoisB Mar 20 #14

This message was self-deleted by its author FullySupportDems Mar 20 #15

I am sorry for your loss. BlueKota Mar 21 #31

Thank you so much crimycarny Mar 21 #50

Working as an ER charge nurse... oldsoldierfadingfast Mar 21 #53

I saw a special Josh Gates did on the Discovery Channel BlueKota Mar 21 #55

I too know where I am going when I leave this place stoned Mar 20 #3

My maternal grandmother died at our home. BlueKota Mar 21 #32

That's beautiful stoned Mar 21 #52

O, my dear Friend.I wish I could wrap my arms around you and tell you that you are loved ((🥰)) Deuxcents Mar 20 #4

Thank you. BlueKota Mar 21 #33

BlueKota, I believe. Clouds Passing Mar 20 #5

I'm so sorry we are living in such awful times. I think staying alive because of love is as good a reason as any LiberalLoner Mar 20 #6

Thank you! BlueKota Mar 21 #34

(((Hugs))). I feel shell shocked lately. It's hard. But I see a strong resistance growing now, too. 💙💙💙 LiberalLoner Mar 21 #37

I think we are all terrified but never think you are powerless and certainly not useless. LoisB Mar 20 #10

Thank you. BlueKota Mar 21 #35

My cousin and I have started ending our phone calls with EverHopeful Mar 20 #13

Thank you. BlueKota Mar 21 #36

I feel the same. FoxNewsSucks Mar 20 #16

The companionship of pets certainly helps. BlueKota Mar 21 #38

I'm your brother BlueKota JMCKUSICK Mar 20 #17

Thank you so much. BlueKota Mar 21 #40

NDEs are more real than this dimension. I had a nonNDE (i took a nap!) and Karadeniz Mar 20 #18

Thank you. BlueKota Mar 21 #41

There are many other worthy animals that would benefit from your love and care JoseBalow Mar 20 #19

I definitely will consider it. BlueKota Mar 21 #39

I have a husband and an 11 year old g-neice I'm guardian of now ms liberty Mar 20 #20

Your niece is lucky to have you. BlueKota Mar 21 #42

We have two dogs that keep us sane RainCaster Mar 20 #21

They are the best medicine BlueKota Mar 21 #43

I have a cat sanctuary. hamsterjill Mar 20 #22

Thank you for being a rescuer, and for staying BlueKota Mar 21 #44

Glad you're here, Bluekota. Permanut Mar 20 #23

Thank you so much. BlueKota Mar 21 #45

I almost died during surgery in late 2022 ... LSparkle Mar 20 #25

Make it stop indeed CountAllVotes Mar 21 #28

I pray every night for it to stop. BlueKota Mar 21 #46

This message was self-deleted by its author 58Sunliner Mar 21 #26

Here for my solitary cat too CountAllVotes Mar 21 #27

It's good the priest came to understand and BlueKota Mar 21 #47

Stay here on the DU and fight, fight, fight!!! applegrove Mar 21 #29

Thank you. I will try my best to fight. BlueKota Mar 21 #48

We are in this together!! applegrove Mar 21 #49

We are here for you too. FM123 Mar 21 #51

Thank you! BlueKota Mar 21 #54

For me, it is my husband. OldBaldy1701E Mar 22 #56

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