I don't feel very good lately.

[backtoblue]

I'm tired of feeling like I'm doing everything wrong. I'm tired of feelings...

For the past few months my outlook on life has plunged into cynicism and loathing. I've always been a glass half full gal and looked at life like it was a river and i was on a kayak riding it's waves through good and bad times.

It's different now. I feel different. I can smile but I'm not happy. It's like being stagnant and rotting inside and some days I actually throw up and have severe headaches.

I've gone to the doc, had some tests run and he prescribed me some anti-depressant. This only makes me feel worse that I'm going to have to take medication, like I'm helpless to myself.

I know I'm not alone and there are others going through bad times. Just had to vent a bit. I'm sure things will get better and I'll feel the sunshine again.