but I've been through quite a bit during my 48 years on this planet from dealing within my own family to dealing with various roommates during my college years. I've been called early in the morning to go to the hospital to pick up a roommate that nearly overdosed and I had to be on suicide watch for one person that I knew when I was 21.
A couple of years later after I graduated another college roommate called me one evening and I couldn't see him that night because of other plans. The next day a mutual friend called and told me that my former roomie tried to overdose on tranquilizers and was unsuccessful; however, I never saw the roommate again. That has weighed heavily on me throughout the years and has influenced my attitude about having compassion for others.
I also can understand about feeling like your personality is underdeveloped--most of us want to please our parents and be the perfect child for them. The difficult thing is to step out and develop relationships that do not involve your parents--being co-dependent on the parents is damaging to your psyche and could possibly lead to a vacuum in your later life when they are deceased.
Fortunately, I do not believe that you are despondent (I recognize that because I've been at that state of mind quite a bit lately). I wish that I could stay up more, but I'm knocked out by all the work that has gone into getting the house ready and I completed a job application this week for a fairly high-paying position which would be a solution to alleviate the stress with my brother. However, the guilt complex is difficult to suppress and it is unfair for anyone to trigger those emotions in others.
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