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I'm no longer quite in the panicky crisis I was in a few days ago. But now that the breakdown itself has blown over I feel like my life is over. Don't worry I'm not quite suicidal. But I don't feel there is any future for me and any thoughts of trying to put together a plan or think about my situation gets the anxiety going again. I'm going to talk to my psychiatrist in 1/2 a week or so and I'm trying to get some ativan or something to tie me over till then. I've been here before but the more times you touch bottom the farther away and the less accessible the surface seems. Also the less hope you have, I don't even feel like trying anymore I've failed so many times. Anyway maybe I should concentrate on just getting back to where I was this summer even if I didn't have a job or school then, things were at least going well emotionally and physically.
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