So, I freaked out yesterday.

[Tobin S.]

4. Hi David

I went for ten years without mental health care when I was insane. The pain was probably more than most people can understand or tolerate. It was like being in hell. Yeah, I think that's what hell would be like if it existed.

I suffered needlessly for ten years because I just shut my mouth and pretended everything was okay while inside I drifted back and forth between delusional paranoia and suicidal contemplation. I have no idea how I kept it together that long and also stayed out of jail. I do have two misdemeanors from that time. When it all became too much and I finally did lose control, I actually got the help I needed. It shouldn't have come to that.