I think I might not be a loner after all.

[Still Blue in PDX]

Not sure if I'm a loner or shy or simply f*cked up because I was raised by f*cked up people.

Probably should try therapy instead of posting this on DU but this is cheaper. I tried therapy once and ended up having to pay $150 because my insurance wouldn't pay for a visit that I missed because I was anxious about going and didn't cancel in time. Don't know whether to chalk that up in the "sad but true" or the "unbelievable stupid shit I've done" column.

Plus I lied to the counselor because I tend to say everything is fine when it isn't, so it wasn't very helpful.