I'm better now, thank you DU. :)

[mopinko]

46. hey there. me too.

recovering from shoulder surgery and it is crashing into spring farm work and neither are going well at the moment.
the shoulder is doing well, just was much more major of a surgery than i was expecting and thought i would get by better. seems like every little thing is screwing up. such tiny things that are hard, if not impossible.

i so very much hate to depend on anyone. i have had some wonderful support from friends, and some surly support from kids. but the loss of my autonomy, and the way it makes me see the future, old lady that i am, just scares me.
it has been 3 years since my ex and i split, and it is starting to get on my nerves.

i know once i am healed up it will be better than the last year or 2 with this mess, but i cant help wondering what the next mess will be.

hang in there, dear. food is a thing when you are lonely. i have barely cooked all this time. i just cant bring myself to do it. thank dawg for grubhub, and the great food in the big city.
i had pizza from my fave joint tonight. makes it a little better.
that and an ice pack.