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PennyK

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66. The stuff has quite a hold. Impressive.

Sat Nov 18, 2017, 01:04 PM

Nov 2017

I have given myself these options: 1/2 pain pill tonight or zero. The withdrawal is really unpleasant...I can't stop obsessing over it. No real physical discomfort, except for stomach butterflies (mild). I'm pretty sure I can do this with the help of my small amounts of Klono or Xanax, and it seems stupid to prolong it.
All I really have to do today is go to the market and throw some sort of dinner together for Hubby. Then, if I want to just medicate myself and sleep, so be it.
Pretty easy to see why this has become a killing epidemic. A little pill that just makes everything okay...

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I'm moving over here from the Cancer group [View all] PennyK Sep 2017 OP

Even w/o your health history, there's so much to be anxious about right now. Laffy Kat Sep 2017 #1

You've come through a lot. Bless you. You seem to have a great and strong soul. Sounds like you are The Wielding Truth Sep 2017 #2

Chemo is desisgned to kill the cancer without killing you. It is a major shock for your body Warpy Sep 2017 #3

If you read about it MFM008 Sep 2017 #4

A&D seem to come&go in waves irisblue Sep 2017 #5

Yes, I have .25 mg pills PennyK Sep 2017 #7

Doing stuff is very important sharedvalues Sep 2017 #6

i may not have explained well PennyK Sep 2017 #8

I hesitate to ask this question PennyK Sep 2017 #9

some people do have that response. It's called paradoxical response. irisblue Sep 2017 #10

Tomorrow. PennyK Sep 2017 #11

And just to make it more special PennyK Sep 2017 #12

I got an anti-depression drug PennyK Sep 2017 #13

depression meds can take up to 8 wks to fully kick in. irisblue Sep 2017 #14

Thanks, irisblue PennyK Sep 2017 #15

I made it through Irma! PennyK Sep 2017 #16

Getting off the Wellbutrin PennyK Sep 2017 #17

Managing PennyK Sep 2017 #18

thanks for updating irisblue Sep 2017 #19

Very funny! Puzzler Aug 2018 #158

Hunh? PennyK Aug 2018 #159

Trying Zoloft now PennyK Sep 2017 #20

Well, Zoloft experiment is over! PennyK Sep 2017 #21

thx for updates. irisblue Sep 2017 #22

Was that the right thing to do? PennyK Sep 2017 #23

if you feel like crap, you feel like crap. irisblue Sep 2017 #24

Okay, I got some good advice on trying Zoloft again. PennyK Sep 2017 #25

you have gone thru a lot...your body and mind are needing some rest.. samnsara Sep 2017 #26

Oh, the trip is off PennyK Sep 2017 #27

Well, so far, so good PennyK Sep 2017 #28

you ever google physical pain irisblue Sep 2017 #29

I believe it PennyK Sep 2017 #30

Doing okay PennyK Sep 2017 #31

Still OK! PennyK Sep 2017 #32

update from Penny irisblue Sep 2017 #33

He's wonderful! PennyK Sep 2017 #34

Still doing okay! PennyK Sep 2017 #35

does the wall hit you @ the same time? irisblue Sep 2017 #36

I think... PennyK Sep 2017 #37

Results of a test PennyK Oct 2017 #38

Today was a good day PennyK Oct 2017 #39

😀😀😀😀😀 irisblue Oct 2017 #40

................... steve2470 Oct 2017 #41

Anxiety is back PennyK Oct 2017 #42

It might be the Percocet PennyK Oct 2017 #43

. irisblue Oct 2017 #44

Muddling through PennyK Oct 2017 #45

I'm beginning to feel better PennyK Oct 2017 #46

enjoy the time with your sister irisblue Oct 2017 #47

Well. Not really there yet. PennyK Oct 2017 #48

Still waiting to feel better PennyK Oct 2017 #49

Thanks for updating....you do understand this is a process irisblue Oct 2017 #50

Yes, thanks, irisblue PennyK Oct 2017 #51

As expected PennyK Oct 2017 #52

hope it works well, hang in there! steve2470 Nov 2017 #53

Not quite there yet... PennyK Nov 2017 #54

Hey irisblue Nov 2017 #55

Those Zoloft side effects are no fun PennyK Nov 2017 #56

Fiction can be so good for distractions. irisblue Nov 2017 #57

Appointment is the 21st. PennyK Nov 2017 #58

It is on the drizzly/light snow edge here. irisblue Nov 2017 #59

That sounds nice! I do have the cat and the afghan PennyK Nov 2017 #60

I was making beef stew irisblue Nov 2017 #61

Oh I am trying to freeze several healthy meals. irisblue Nov 2017 #62

My appetite wasn't good for those few days PennyK Nov 2017 #63

I'm actually craving beef stew PennyK Nov 2017 #64

Still feeling kinda tense PennyK Nov 2017 #65

The stuff has quite a hold. Impressive. PennyK Nov 2017 #66

. irisblue Nov 2017 #67

I managed to skip the drug last night! PennyK Nov 2017 #68

i made it another day. PennyK Nov 2017 #69

Biopsy results: No Cancer! PennyK Nov 2017 #70

great news! :) you must be very relieved nt steve2470 Nov 2017 #71

Happy dance ya'll!! irisblue Nov 2017 #72

Thanks! PennyK Nov 2017 #73

I think my Zoloft is finally working PennyK Nov 2017 #74

😍😀 irisblue Nov 2017 #75

Self awareness is a huge positive step elfin Nov 2017 #76

Got an awful headache PennyK Nov 2017 #77

Headache still in progress PennyK Nov 2017 #78

Apparently it's a tension headache PennyK Dec 2017 #79

Did the chiro suggest a particular pillow/neck support? irisblue Dec 2017 #80

Well, I'm careful about that PennyK Dec 2017 #81

After I've had a deep tissue 💆 massage, irisblue Dec 2017 #82

Yep! PennyK Dec 2017 #83

Thanks, I also added this great idea PennyK Dec 2017 #84

Crossing my fingers... PennyK Dec 2017 #85

I asked around on FB and got more advice PennyK Dec 2017 #86

yay me! PennyK Dec 2017 #87

Paper bag? irisblue Dec 2017 #88

It was a suggestion PennyK Dec 2017 #89

I finally see my PCP today PennyK Dec 2017 #90

Went to the doctor PennyK Dec 2017 #91

😀 irisblue Dec 2017 #92

Fiorcet works well for me. irisblue Dec 2017 #93

I finally got my prescription filled PennyK Dec 2017 #94

I'm feeling so much better! PennyK Dec 2017 #95

Getting another massage and chiro today PennyK Dec 2017 #96

😀😸😀😸😸😀👋 irisblue Dec 2017 #97

I'm floating on a cloud PennyK Dec 2017 #98

Next problem PennyK Dec 2017 #99

Another yay me PennyK Dec 2017 #100

that is outstanding! Skittles Dec 2017 #101

I hadn't noticed this thread at the outset True Dough Dec 2017 #102

Thank you! PennyK Dec 2017 #103

.😀 irisblue Dec 2017 #104

Cheerful PennyK Dec 2017 #105

Today is my 67th birthday PennyK Dec 2017 #106

HAPPY BIRTHDAY! irisblue Dec 2017 #107

Thanks, irisblue! PennyK Dec 2017 #108

Wha' happened? PennyK Dec 2017 #109

I haven't followed your thread faithfully, sorry, are you on any anti-anxiety meds ? steve2470 Dec 2017 #110

Hi. steve PennyK Dec 2017 #111

Doing better today! PennyK Dec 2017 #112

I figured it out. PennyK Dec 2017 #113

Feeling better PennyK Dec 2017 #114

Thanks for the update Penny irisblue Dec 2017 #115

Feeling better. PennyK Dec 2017 #116

Best wishes to all for 2018! PennyK Dec 2017 #117

This whole addiction thing is more insidious than I thought. PennyK Jan 2018 #118

Today has been challenging. RotoRooter putting new sewer line down in the backyard irisblue Jan 2018 #119

New sewer line? PennyK Jan 2018 #120

Cast iron pipe laid down 60+ yrs ago. irisblue Jan 2018 #121

I'm going to increase my Zoloft PennyK Jan 2018 #122

A small step in the right direction PennyK Jan 2018 #123

Good on you!👍👼 irisblue Jan 2018 #124

Thanks PennyK Jan 2018 #125

I am not a physician but I do recommend you lay off the Xanax if you can. Eliot Rosewater Jan 2018 #126

No, appreciated your comment PennyK Jan 2018 #127

1 mg of ativan should be plenty, problem is Xanax has a very strong 2nd life, and Eliot Rosewater Jan 2018 #128

Thanks again PennyK Jan 2018 #129

hope things are going well for you overall! steve2470 Jan 2018 #130

Hey Steve PennyK Feb 2018 #131

The Xanax may have been giving me probs. I switched. PennyK Mar 2018 #132

Thanks for the update Penny. Wishing you the best. irisblue Mar 2018 #133

One night with Ambien was enough for me! PennyK Apr 2018 #134

Nights with broken sleep irisblue Apr 2018 #135

Regretting my plan to travel PennyK May 2018 #136

Making it, but with help from meds PennyK May 2018 #137

Apparently I have been really sick PennyK May 2018 #141

Hey Penny 👋 irisblue May 2018 #138

Hey yourself, irisblue PennyK May 2018 #139

It isn't really improving PennyK May 2018 #140

The samples are in PennyK Jun 2018 #142

So how's this? PennyK Jun 2018 #143

I'd say that was probably good news :) nt steve2470 Jun 2018 #144

Most likely outcome: PennyK Jun 2018 #145

All tests negative (for digestive issue) PennyK Jun 2018 #146

Maybe not! PennyK Jun 2018 #147

Meanwhile, I'm finally cutting out the Xanax! PennyK Jun 2018 #148

Thanks for the update irisblue Jun 2018 #149

that's good news about the Xanax :) nt steve2470 Jun 2018 #150

Colonoscopy on Monday PennyK Jul 2018 #151

Best colonoscopy ever PennyK Jul 2018 #152

So far so good...? PennyK Jul 2018 #153

I seem to be all better, digestively speaking PennyK Aug 2018 #154

This has nothing to do with my mental health PennyK Aug 2018 #155

Healing up nicely PennyK Aug 2018 #156

Vision is a little blurry PennyK Aug 2018 #157

I am feeling cheerful?!? PennyK Sep 2018 #160

Another trip home to NYC PennyK Oct 2018 #161

Updates when you get back please. irisblue Oct 2018 #162

I had a nice little trip PennyK Oct 2018 #163