How do you forgive yourself?

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9. Same here!

I have been helped by my dogs twice when I had hit a wall and collapsed into depression from lack of meds the first time and my meds ceasing to work the second. When I say collapse, that is both mental and physical for me, and my self-hatred makes me feel like I don't deserve help and that I should consider dying. But these sweet companions need me, whether I feel like I am irredeemable or not. My love for them breaks through and I get to the Psychiatrist and my Therapist ASAP.

That being said, I have been in therapy for years working on forgiving myself and ending the self-loathing. The therapy has been slow going, for me it's rewriting my thinking from childhood on, but there is steady progress.