I feel for you and I wish you love, joy and most of all peace. One thing that may help to know is that when you are at your lowest and feel completely dreadful, there is an opening coming, and that opening will bring you clarity, understanding, and perhaps a new perspective.
If you hadn't journeyed through the darkness, you would never appreciate how bright the light is...and it is there, even if it doesn't seem like it. Ask for guidance and it will come. Experiencing the darkness only leads to one thing, growth. We all go through it, no one is immune.
But now there is so much more light here than ever before and we can interact with that light and use it to elevate ourselves. What may have taken weeks, months, years or even lifetimes to work through before, we can now do almost instantaneously.
Try intending that you have learned what it is you were supposed to learn, that you are ready to release whatever it is. And then, most importantly, set your intention that your personal vibration is rising to one of complete and unconditional love and compassion. Visualize every cell in your body upgrading, increasing to the highest frequency attainable to you right now. Just keep doing this, even if you think it's not helping. You have to "ask" and be open to receiving the light, which you are. It will work. Assistance is all around us now closer than ever before and when you come out the other side of this, you will be so much lighter than you ever could imagine. Much, much love to you. 
Edit history
Recommendations
0 members have recommended this reply (displayed in chronological order):
= new reply since forum marked as read