but I still feel drained and despairing that I can find anyone at all to relate to, but somewhat better. At least I haven't had any more nightmares. So if she wasn't sucking my energy, why did I feel so terrible like I could barely walk or breathe? I certainly couldn't think when she was telling me what a horrible person I am.
You said I was right to walk away. I did walk away. When they decided to cut in my line, I didn't think they were singling me out or attacking me. I just thought they were pushy and I DID try to get away from them.
Backed out and got in a different line. But then the mother came back and attacked me in my line, coming back in towards the store in our line, as hubby was dealing with the transaction, we were attempting to check out, and I was just stunned and felt like I was going to collapse. She didn't give me a chance to say anything.
You are right that I have felt like I have caught an awful lot of criticism I didn't deserve. I'm a perfectionist and wondered why people would get on my case when I was doing the best job I thought was humanly possible. I was a court reporter for 20 years and some lawyers and judges need someone to lash out at. I kept quiet and did my job. Basically I got utterly burned out on humanity and my job by the time I was 35. Before that, I came home from work and was crying just from the inherent stress of the job and having to always hurry. I don't think I can ever work around other people again.
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