MOL, I am getting some messages for you

[magical thyme]

Your deepest wounds are surfacing. This is a healing time. It is a time to be very gentle with yourself so you can then be equally gentle with others.

It's been my experience whenever somebody (myself included) seemingly "overreacts" to an external experience, it is because it is triggering memories of earlier and deeper trauma. Your experience in the store is one of those occasions.

Also, in the Walmart when you commented loudly about the lack of sufficient checkers and the checker told you you need to keep your opinions to yourself. She was, of course, expressing her opinion One thing I have taken a bloody long time to learn is that nobody is really interested in my opinion about everything, any more than I am interested in other people's opinions all the time. Any time you express your opinion loudly, don't be surprised to have somebody within earshot express their opinion back at you. So the lesson here is to learn to keep your opinion to yourself, unless somebody specifically asks for it. And even then, offer it with care because every word is power and will create a karmic ripple. Treat your inner thoughts and feelings like precious jewels, to be used carefully and shared only with those worthy of them.

You are afraid of the people around you, but your fear reaction provokes their own fears. And then the fear reverberates back and forth. One reason you are afraid is because your wounds are surfacing, so you feel vulnerable. That is a normal reaction.

You mentioned you don't want to be around people any more, which creates a conflict with your desire to be around like-minded people. (A lot of us have been struggling with such feelings lately). Also have mentioned several times you don't have anybody around you (in your neck of the woods) that you can talk to or relate to.

This seems like a time for you to retreat into yourself, to be an introvert, to turn inward, even stay home as much as possible, and keep to yourself as much as possible. To explore your fears, your dreams (nightmares) to completely expose and heal some wounds. To listen to healing music, engage in healing activities, to bless your home, smudge the perimeters of your property, journal your thoughts and feelings... and just rest. Allow the wounds that have surfaced the cleaning and healing time they need.

Namaste.