I understand your viewpoints and I sense the same feelings sometimes. Nevertheless, I think that you lack religious convictions in your life.
But that's okay. Because I don't think that a lack of motivation to do religious practices makes a person a bad human being. Many people who have lived through a lot of bad experiences usually feel the same way as you feel.
Also, that's a typical behavior for anyone who communicates strong emotions.
Conceivably you have been through a bunch of harsh experiences in your life that are still sticking with you and make you feel apprehensive about religious beliefs.
The good news is that you are not the only one who feels that way. Nowadays more people are leaving their churches because they don't have the desire to practice the faith in the form that was taught to them as children. Today we have more agnostic across the USA than expected and sadly that's a trend/ way of behaving in today's society.
As you know an Agnostic / Nonreligious person
is a a person who claims neither faith nor disbelief in God. Btw, you are alright, so don't even worry about it. So hang in there just make sure that
you, your family, and your friends vote for Joe Biden.
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