I want to believe in a God.

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24. Why are you looking for a comfort zone "with God"?

Why are you not looking for a comfort zone with yourself? Given that you now view yourself as a better person now than you were in the past, why do need to include Jesus or God in that reality? You do not need a god of any variety to become a "better" person or to be moral or ethical.

In my dim and distant past I wanted to feel the love of God and to have God's guidance. Searching I found nothing and the door at which I wanted to knock was imaginary. Then I realised that, no matter what the teaching, I have but one life in which to get it right and I must rely not on the faulty constructs which all are just conceptions of other humans of what they think a transcendental creature would want.

Humans have created solid foundations for morals, ethics and good behaviour, use those and become happy in your own skin. Even if I am wrong and there is an overarching deity do you want to support that deity if it cannot accept your goodness? A deity that needs your belief in, and your worship of, He/She/It as a prerequisite of not being punished?