such a shock.
I hope you're close to your mother, she is the one who my heart especially goes out to, especially since she's undoubtedly still grieving for her husband. This makes her grief even more complicated than it would be regardless, by virtue of having lost a child. nonetheless, this is your brother and your own grief and shock cannot be minimized.
it is ridiculous that gawd killed your brother because of anything whatsoever to do with you.
these things are random and can happen to anyone. when i was 13 my 49-year-old father dropped dead of a heart attack. When i was 45 my daughter was run over and killed. No time for good-byes.
I am also an atheist; probably more concise to say a spiritual humanist. I hope you have a support system to get you through this and would recommend eventually seeking grief counseling.
peace and love to you. 
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