I have felt so guilty for years that I don't like to socialize the way everyone else seems to. I've tried to rationalize my behavior by telling people I suffer from anxiety (which I do) and that this is the reason I don't appear to be all lovey dovey with everyone I meet.
I've recently reconnected with a few of my high school girlfriends and we do have a great time when we're together, but a little of that goes a long way. We have a few get togethers and take a few trips but I'm free to say no if I want to.
My husband of 44 years took a new job in another town last year and after the initial shock wore off that he didn't want to live with me anymore, I kinda have grown to enjoy my alone time! Strange.
Of course, lonesome times come and go depending on how healthy I feel at the time but generally speaking, I'm fine with living by myself. I do what I want when I want and how I want. I make my own rules and no longer want (or need) the responsibility of taking care of anyone but myself.
This forum is going to be a great place....we can come and go when we please...and everyone sounds so intelligent!!!! I do not suffer ignorance well. 
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