I find myself really wanting a wedding

[Timeflyer]

11. On the spectrum in a rural area is rough, but

you are still young--your male brain just finished developing about 4-5 years ago. Forget the wedding--females have a deep need to orchestrate their own and anyone else's wedding, we can't help it (well, I couldn't). Forget meeting potential mates, just meet new friends. Move out of rural area if possible, and once you move, volunteer for organizations that resonate with your interests and concerns. Let your spectrum freak flag fly, you're wonderful as you are. Let people get to know you. If they don't accept you as you truly are, deep down, don't hang around.

Now, after all that bossy blah, blah--lonely is hard. It hurts. Don't give up. Get professional counsel to talk to, if you can, and don't let anyone scare you off taking prescription medication--sometimes it makes a huge positive difference. But mostly don't give up--your future is out there.