Noticed not much activity here, but hoping/trying for help anyway!

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12. Yeah, I just completed the week 1 course.

Focusing on something different helps for sure and I am going to work on the Loving Kindness Meditations as one of my next steps.

Unfortunately, right now, food isn't something that brings me much pleasure - for the first time in my life. It's so weird, I have ALWAYS had a big appetite and loved food - up until about 6 months ago. Food doesn't smell good now, it usually makes me feel slightly nauseous. Carnitas have been one of my faves forever, and yesterday I really had to force myself to eat 1 and couldn't finish it. I was happy yesterday when I actually managed to eat healthy and a sufficient quantity, so yay! Today isn't as good, but then I am much better at eating in the later part of the day than at the beginning for some reason.

I do have the fixings for a pork chop dinner that I've made since I was a kid and love. So I think one of my goals is to feel good enough to cook and eat the dinner within 2 weeks.