I haven't admitted this to anyone here at DU

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45. I'm stressed too

You're an important member of this community, keep posting. I'm insulin dependent, aka type 1 diabetic. I'm messed up when my insulin runs out after 24 hours or less and can't survive much longer than you without that medicine. As part of being buddist, we've already gotten lots of extra time from our treatments to worry about this excessively is a type of attachment. That dialisis center is in your city, your state will take it over immediately. The risk isn't as much Febuary, it will be one or more major disasters, we are about to go into a verious serious time with our sun. All the geopolitical chaos is another risk. Pandemics will be an issue too with his clowns. And our climate is tottering on instability where either an ice age could set in rapidly (12 years or less) or our warming could go runaway upto even as catrostropic as our oceans begin a long sort of boiling off and we loose most of our water. Just make sure you have your medicine and herb if you use it and try and enjoy however long you can.

For a hopeful track remember there are businesses that depend on your dialisis clinic, our wealthy might be insifferent about exactly how much money you get but they surely don't want millions dieing all in a short timeframe. Don't forget the serenity prayer only focus on what you can change.

Pema Chödrön, in her The Wisdom of No Escape: How to Love Yourself and Your World describes it as a story of a woman running away from tigers. She runs and runs and the tigers are getting closer and closer. When she comes to the edge of a cliff, she sees some vines there. She climbs down and holds on to the vines. Looking down, she sees that there are tigers below her as well. She then notices that a mouse is gnawing away at the vine to which she is clinging. She also sees a beautiful little bunch of strawberries close to her, growing out of a clump of grass, so she looks up and she looks down. She looks at the mouse. Then she just takes a strawberry, puts it in her mouth, and enjoys it thoroughly.

What Does this Parable Represent?
The tiger above may represent our past, our traumas and difficulties that, if not worked on and brought awareness about, canthreaten to ruin our lives with worry, fear, anxiety and even shame.

The tigers below may symbolize our future, and the constant speculations about the challenges we may face. As human beings, this is actually the predicament we all face: our death.

The story highlights our tendency to focus on the tigers of our lives. And most of us disregard the strawberries that are around in every moment.

https://embracemindfulness.org/2023/01/18/the-tigers-the-strawberry/