I'll always be a broken person.

[mopinko]

7. yup.

this plague has been tough on both my physical and mental health.
so many people i thought were friends who, turns out, didnt give a shit if i lived or died.
and didnt care that i was being harassed by some assholes because i got so loud about it and bothered everyone.
i didnt handle an of it well. in fact, i ended up in jail.

the whole mess cost me a ton of money. had empty rental units and couldnt get work done to get them back on the market. and engaged in more retail therapy than was good for me.
was lucky to take care of myself a lot of days, let alone anything else.
been an endless parade of strange and bad reactions to it.

finally getting them on the market. have a sf house and an apt in a 2flat.
the house is something i am super proud of. bought a wreck, and turned it into the sweetest little jewel. been so great to show it to people and watch them fall in love.
got a tenant in 2 days.

finally getting my health back. yoga really helps, and i was doing well til i bruised a bicep tendon. killed half my routine. finally got going again a few days ago.
but i've just had to do the things i have the need to do, however that shakes out w money or public opinion.
i chose the chores that will give me the most sense of accomplishment, and normalcy.
or solace. nobody sees my kitchen but me, and everyone sees my weeds. but ya gotta take the steps that feel like they are in the right direction. and worrying about what these clowns think of. my landscaping aint it.

at least there's a lot of us in this boat. talk to anyone about where their mental health has been in the last year and a half, and pretty much everyone i talk to nods and is- yeah, worst ever.