Looks like time is growing short now.

[OldBaldy1701E]

I woke up this morning. Both hands were aching due to poor circulation. My stomach is getting worse. I cannot do much about this as I have no money to address health issues like this. My gut demands me eat/drink certain things to calm it down. However, these things are not heart healthy. Quite the opposite in fact. But, the discomfort forces the issue. I already had one quad bypass. I am not sure I want another one, since the simple fact remains that I was released from the hospital very fast because my last name is not Soros or Musk. I did not have anyone around during my recovery because my husband has to work. I would prefer not to die slowly and painfully, but I guess I have little choice.

I will say this. Damn this country for falling into the greed trap. Damn this country for saying they like democracy and then proving they are the opposite of democratic Damn this nation for deciding that healthcare should be a profit-based business. Damn this nation for acting like they have a heart or a conscience. I am not the only person who is going to be nothing more than a number on some page and die in obscurity because we were too busy trying to amass everything on the planet and refusing to give a rats ass about other humans. And, we still collectively don't care.

It is four in the morning. Will I make it to five? How about six? Why should I make it to anything when it is just prolonging the suffering? There certainly is no light at the end of the tunnel for me. Why even take another breath? He'd be better off without me hanging around his neck. The whole world would be, since it has already made it clear I offered nothing that it found valuable or worth its time.