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[polly7]

2. Thanks NYC-SKP

I feel sort of pathetic writing these things because I know others have far greater problems, but it's just really hard when you don't see anything good and it's like ... what's the use in trying. I don't know how some people manage it, and I used to be such a strong person ... now, it's gotten to being pissed off I wake up in the mornings. No worries, I'd never do anything to myself because I know how that's devastating to people that care, but you feel trapped, you know? Sometimes it would be easier to have no-one to pretend for.